Navigating the contemporary muck

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Has to happen. The cannons are loaded. The cannons are. And we're going to tackle some concepts this morning that I'm sure a large portion of you can relate to.

And what we're going to do is I'm going to kind of descend backwards into my experience growing up in a farmer's world, right? The contemporary world that we live in is built by farmers. It's a farmer's mindset. Things are stationary.

Everyone's got their little fucking homestead. The hunter's brain is really not wired to fit in to the way the modern world is constructed. And that's why we see a lot of. With ADHD and kind of a tailspin and some of these other mental defects that you could call them, because they just don't fit in with the way the modern world is set up.

And growing up, I knew from a very early age, very early on, I had a sensibility about me and I had a perception that I was not designed for the world that we live in whatsoever. I was not. I was not molded to be cast in the system that was laid before me. School for me was the most torturous place you could have dropped me off to.

I would have rather have been fucking paradropped into the Amazonian rainforest with no tools. It was absolute torture. Even just the aesthetic from a. I'm talking real early on, real early on elementary school.

You're in a concrete compound, you know what I mean? You're basically sitting in a cinder block. And these schools, the aesthetics are so disgusting. It's something out of brutalist, dystopian architecture.

And if you think this wasn't done intentionally, you're crazy. You're crazy. Everything from the desks, the cheap plastic, the casing under the fake plywood on the desks, just the whole thing, you're just. You're sitting in a room under fluorescent light.

It was always just a disgraceful place to be. I always felt absolute torture in my soul when I was forced to sit in the classroom. And the first giveaway, the first giveaway that there was some authoritative wizardry going on to basically essentially leech and Reeve the soul out of young, up and coming learners was the. The first, like, real touch of grace that kind of gave away the jig.

And things were never the same for me after I saw that even as a young boy coming up. Think about the existential dread of having to raise your hand and ask a stranger to go take a piss. Like, things, things at that level. If you were sitting in a classroom when you were a young Boy, and that didn't rub you the wrong way, then.

You were just built to be a cog in the machine for sure. Like, that was the first giveaway, the existential dread of having to raise your hand and basically beg and plead to ask to leave the classroom, to take a piss. Like, what the is that? That is an absolute horror show.

And if that didn't ignite something in you as a young boy, I don't know what to tell you, buddy. I don't know what to tell you. But for me, that was like, the first proof, the first glimmer of proof that there was a sleight of hand going on. Like, they're trying to essentially extinguish sparks of genius from an early age.

They're trying to get you to submit. Every force, every institution is, is. Has joined allegiances, and they are literally in lockstep, in unison, designed to basically smash outliers, just crush you in every which way possible through demoralization, through. Through dehumanization.

That is fucking dehumanizing. I don't give a fuck what anybody says. That is 100% dehumanizing. To make a fucking kid have to ask to take a piss.

That's fucking wild. Like, there's no two. There's no ifs, ands, or buts about it. It's an absurd concept.

And there's so many other little nuances to that. But, like, the. Look at the fucking schoolyard. I mean, like I said, you're just in a barrier.

You're in a fucking prison. You know what I mean? From the steel gates that lock you in, some of you probably had barbed wire layering the outskirts of the campus. The quad is just a hunk of concrete.

It's just a stucco concrete structure that you're stuck in all day long, which is conductive to heat. Heat doesn't dissipate. It's hot, it's muggy. There's no fresh air.

You're seated. You're in a submissive defensive position when people are scolding you or trying to impart knowledge. The whole thing makes zero sense biologically. Biologically, you're just getting hammered.

You know what I mean? Like, you're learning to be just a submissive. A submissive little fucking obedient employee. Like, that's what the whole system is.

So from a very early age, I had a massive conflict with this whole setup. It just never rubbed me the right way. I would gnash my teeth and thrash my fucking tail to do anything to get the fuck out of it. Now what happens is when you go through a hellish experience in school, you're gonna start to develop a lot of personality quirks to defend against that.

Because if you have fire in your soul, and you would know by now by like the age of like seven, eight, if you have that fire in your soul, you know that you're just gonna constantly resist. But the thing is, it's so difficult, it's so tough to see that there's another possibility out there. That's. That's the problem is like you're.

You're. You're looking through a kaleidoscope and your world is so microscopic because you have your parents enforcing this. They're the ones dropping you off at school. They're the ones kind of reinforc.

Forcing the system on you. And you're just very trapped because you have no power as a youngster. And that's the real. That's the real battleground because you just don't have any authority.

You have no agency, you have no power. You have no control over anything. You're just a cork bobbing on the ocean. And you're pretty much gonna have to do what people tell you to do.

You know what I mean? That's why when parents tell you enjoy being a kid because when you get older, you're going to have responsibility. That's one of the greatest lies ever told. Being a kid is horrifying.

You have zero power. Who the wants to be a kid forever? It's the worst position to be in. You know what I mean?

The older you get, at least you can sharpen your talents and you can flash some fangs every now and then and sort of carve out some territory for yourself. You don't have that opportunity when you're a youngster. So that whole fucking Peter Pan thing of enjoy it while you're young because you're free. Nonsense, nonsense.

That's a fucking psyop. So, you know, we go, we move along, we go into high school, and you're still sort of just stuck in this rigmarole. You feel like you've pissed away the first 15 years of your life learning. Learning skills that aren't going to do a goddamn thing for you.

So it's like by the time you're 18 in America, you kind of get the realization that you've pissed away the first 18 years of your life. Like, life really does not begin for an American man, which explains the lack of maturity. And it explains why everybody's so far behind emotionally, is because life really doesn't begin until you get out of school. Because you basically pissed away the first 18 years of your life with no agency.

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The hunter's brain is completely squashed. If you want to seek opportunity, you really can't. So you're just basically shackled. You're shackled.

You're in a straight jacket for the first 18 years, and you just gotta brave it and you got to cope with it and you got to survive it. And it's brutal. It's absolutely brutal. Unless you have that farmer's brain, which most people do, which is the slow and steady incremental improvement life.

Now. Slow and steady, incremental improvement life. For me, that doesn't work. That doesn't work because my brain is geared and it's wired to turn over every motherfucking rock for opportunity, to turn over every stone, to brave my own path, to be at the tip of the spear, to be a fucking firebrand, to be a trailblazer.

That's always been my shtick. My shtick was I always wanted to push the human limits and see how far I could go on my own. On my own. I was always autodidactic.

You know, when I was. When I was little, I was forced into taking a lot of lessons. I tried to learn guitar, I tried to learn bass, and I hated it. I couldn't even learn guitar because when the teacher would sit in front of me and show me how to play guitar, I felt way too constrained and restricted.

You know what I mean? Four strings. Four strings. And I understand that you can concoct an infinitesimal amount of music out of those four strings, but it just felt too restricted for me, you know what I mean?

Like, I just. It just didn't make sense. I'm not. Not wired that way.

So anytime I would go into a lesson or try to learn how to shoot hoops or swing a baseball bat, get any kind of coaching, I was extremely, extremely defiant of any kind of technique. I learned every technique, every sport I ever did. I had to figure it out on my own. Didn't want to coach, didn't want any authority.

Let me dive in and let me figure it the out. And so when I got into high school, my home life was so brutal. I hated coming home from school every day because despite the fact that I did grow up in an affluent home, I had parents who reinforced the system. And they were buyers.

They really, really bought into the idea that, that if you want to be somebody, you got to get a college degree, you got to go through the system. You got to slog away every day, incremental, step by step. And that never, ever jived with me for even a millisecond. And no matter what they did, no matter how hard they try to bury me underground, I would grow.

I would grow. You know, there's just some seeds that you can't bury. There's some spirits that are so hardened and callous that there's really no genetic programming that you can put on them that's not going to make them fucking fight back. In fact, my theory is that there are some genetic specimens that if you put them under enough pressure and enough stress and enough strain, they're actually going to blossom even harder than they would have been if you had just left them alone.

And in my case, this seems to be the truth. When I was in high school, I. The depression of waking up every morning and having to go to the classroom another day, I just couldn't do it anymore. I couldn't do it anymore.

It was breaking me because I knew I was wasting so much fucking time. I had zero interest. But here's the thing. I was a bad student, but I was a big learner.

So anything that I wanted to learn on my own, I could fucking grasp concepts so fast. I could teach myself anything. But I couldn't sit in a fucking algebra class. I just couldn't do it.

I'd fucking fall asleep. My eyes would be closing. I'd purposely fucking sabotage my grades. They didn't know what to do with me.

My parents didn't know what to do with me. They thought. They told me I was lazy. They told me I was lazy because they didn't have the tools, they didn't have the skill set.

They didn't have the mental cognition to understand that they just had a child that just wasn't built for this shit. And so what they did is they reinforced it through intense, draconian style punishment, basically corporal punishment. When I wouldn't behave in a way that was in alignment with the rules, I would just get grounded every day. I was always, always getting in trouble.

And I had a younger brother. I would just take the heat for everything. So I was just getting just berated and lambasted every day of my life. It never ended.

It never ended. I'm always in some kind of trouble for talking back, thinking a different way, always busted, always grounded, can't go out, cars being taken away, can't go out on a Friday night getting my phone taken away. Whatever the it was, I was always getting grounded. And this created, obviously, a Force of nature that was brewing, you know what I mean?

They had no idea that what they were doing is they were brewing a specimen who was eventually gonna break out of that local minima, you know what I mean? Because that local minima is brutal. And like I said, when you're 15, 16 years old and you're in high school, you don't really understand the context of reality. You don't really understand that there's a massive, massive world out there where anything is possible.

And that's the problem, is it's very easy to be myopic and it's very easy to let that worldview just cave in upon you and surrender. Because everywhere you turn, you got everyone reinforcing this and shoving it down your throat that you're supposed to just do things the proper way. But there is no proper way of doing things. That's not a real thing.

There's no proper way of doing things. And so what happens is, is in this modern landscape, you. You often find that parents will want things for you that you don't want for yourself. And you have to deconstruct this.

You have to deconstruct this. And you have to see the insanity in that. You have to see the insanity in ever wanting something for someone that they don't want for themselves. You know what I'm like.

That makes zero sense. Like, I have friends that have turned into losers. I can't want them to change more than they want to change themselves. How the does that mechanism even work?

It doesn't. It doesn't. That's not love. That's pure selfishness.

That's pure selfishness. Because if the lifestyle. Look, first of all, you have to understand every lifestyle is profitable. Every lifestyle that you choose is profitable.

I do not believe that anyone has chosen to take an unprofitable lifestyle. Even the lazy loitering on the couch all day has chosen the path of least resistance for himself. He's figuring out a way to survive. So there's no such thing as any kind of adaptation.

Everybody in on Earth, even the biggest losers, are choosing a path for themselves that has benefits and profit, or they wouldn't be doing it. You know what I mean? Because the human organism is parsimonious. It's very parsimonious and it's very economical with its resources.

And it will defend you. Your, Your body will defend any viewpoint that you decide to take, because the body is that clever and it's that creative. It will do that for you. And that's what I talk about.

When I'm telling you that what happens is people go on autopilot because they don't understand that they've been bombarded. They've been bombarded by schools, by hospitals, by doctors, by authority figures, by parents who maybe their intentions are well meaning, maybe they are, but that's irrelevant. When you have a soul that's on fire and you're trying to make something of yourself, your problems, when you are trying to reinvent yourself, are supposed to be incomprehensible. Do you understand?

They are supposed to. No one is supposed to understand the pain that you're going through because it's unique to you. Nobody's supposed to have a hold on that. Nobody, you know?

And so my home life was so wretched. It was so cold because there was nothing. There was nothing for me there. And so it would just be me grinding my antlers against my family members.

Every day, my antlers are clashing up against theirs. And it was like eventually something was gonna break. So when I was in high school, when I would get home from school, my outlet was actually basketball. And I would just go into the gym with my brother and I would practice five or six hours a day.

And I developed a wicked, wicked jump shot. Wicked. I mean, this thing was filthy. And then I started playing high school basketball and I started torching and just fucking igniting motherfuckers because it was the only outlet that I had.

The only outlet that I had. I had no freedom. Everyone was pushing on me. Everyone's telling me, be quiet, sit down, learn, fucking get good grades.

I didn't want any of that. So I'm like 15 years old and I'm like, I need to compete in a local arena. I need to find something. I don't give a fuck how trivial or how fucking basic it is.

I don't care how facile it is. I need to get myself in some kind of competitive environment to rise rank. To rise rank. I need to prove myself.

I need to show my talent in some form or capacity, some shape or form. Because I'm just being smashed every day, I'm being smashed to pieces. No one understands that. I don't want to be here.

I don't want to be going to class. No one knows what to do. So I'm just like, all right, I'm just going to fucking start fucking imposing my will in an arena where it makes sense. So then I started to find that through athletics and through shooting hoops in the gym and just getting real good.

I mean, I was. I was I was a fanatic. I was obsessed with the game. I would fucking practice every fucking day.

And then I would go home and my mom would be like, you're fucking lazy. You don't want to work, you don't want to go to school. But I'm like, in my head I'm like, how the fuck am I lazy? I'm getting up at 5am before school even starts and I'm running two, I'm running two miles in the street.

And then I come home and I had a little fucking weight bench. I'm fucking bench pressing, I'm working out, I'm doing body style workout, bodybuilding style workouts. When I'm 15 motherfucking years old. There's nothing lazy about me.

It's the opposite. I'm just disenchanted and I'm disenfranchised by a system who doesn't cater to motherfuckers who want to build their own path. It's that simple. But it's very easy because when you're a kid, you are very impressionable by your parents.

You're impressionable and you want to, you want to make them proud. But there was just something in me that couldn't accept it. So when I would step onto that court, it was the only outlet in my life where I could actually impose my will and see what it was like to break other down. You know what I mean?

Like if you've been in athletics, you know, the high, you know the euphoria of snapping someone's ankles on a basketball court and nailing a three and swishing it and just watching your opponents slowly be worn down and ground down and lose their morale, like, you know what that's like over the course of a full pickup basketball game, you know what I'm saying? You're just breaking ankles, you're in the zone. I mean, I was unconscious. I was unconscious at times.

I was just on a heater, on a tear, I couldn't miss. I'm just nailing shots from everywhere and I'm channeling the fury and I'm channeling the deep anger that I have at home where I'm not getting any support, I ain't getting any love. So I'm going on the basketball court and I'm just torching and I have a chip on my shoulder and I am a sore loser. When I would lose or there was a good defender on me who would stuff me and it was hard to get by, I would, I would absolutely come unglued.

I was so frustrated And I knew from an early age that I had that competitive spirit I hated. I was the. The biggest poor sport you've probably ever witnessed in your life. When I'd play video games with someone, like one of my friends from school, and they'd be whooping me, I would just go rip the power cord out before they could officially beat me.

I mean, I was just absolutely hellbent competitive. And when I did anything recreationally, I treated it very seriously. I took it personal. Like when I played basketball with my friends, I didn't know who the you were on the court.

We can shake hands afterwards and be boys, but while we're competing, I don't know who the you are. I just take it personal that you think you can beat me, and I'm gonna come at you with every thing I have, and we compete. And like I said, we can shake hands afterwards. But that was the kind of spirit that I had in me my whole life, and I finally found an outlet to channel it properly, you know what I mean?

So it's like these. These little tiny things that happen in your life. You don't realize till way later on that was saving my life because I was being suffocated at home. I was being suffocated.

And so finally I found an outlet where all of a sudden, I'm getting respect because I'm good, I'm talented, and I'm in there every day training, sweating my ass off, working on my jumper. I was a lefty, so I was hard to guard, etc. Etc. So you see where I'm going with that.

And then it got to the point where my mom eventually kind of lost patience. She lost her cool. She couldn't figure out why my grades were so bad, and she forced me to go to therapy. And this is, I think, when I was, like, 14.

So she drags me into a therapist office, and she's like, we need to. We need to have, like, an intervention. We need some kind of mediation to figure out how to get you enthusiastic about school and how to get you on the right track. But keep in mind, I already knew I was on the right track.

I already knew I was on the right track, but I was only 14, so I didn't really have any proof in the pudding. I didn't really have any fucking way of expressing that. I just knew it internally. So she drags me to a therapist one day, and I'll never forget this.

The therapist. So she. She tells me to go to the. She tells me to meet her at the therapist office, which was literally five minute walk from my house down the street.

So I walked to the office at a certain time and I noticed that my mom's car was there. And I was like, this is weird. So I walk into the lobby and I see my mom come out of the office where I'm supposed to sit down for therapy. And she's like.

I was like, what's going on? And she was like, I just did an hour session to kind of set the tone right now as a youngster who's already been through the fucking gauntlet with authority figures in school that are fake, a ton of, a ton of, you know, pressure at home with people telling me what to do and telling me how to fuck, how to do things correctly, I was already very skeptical, very, very skeptical of any kind of authority. So when she brought me into that office and she had told me that she had already done an hour session, but this was the first time I was supposed to meet the therapist, I took a huge affront to that. I felt like my trust was broken.

And so when I went into the therapist's office, I sat down and I'm only 14. And I told the therapist, I said, listen, I said, I cannot go any further with this. I said, I cannot have you as my therapist. And the lady said, why?

And I said, because the integrity has already been ruined. And she goes, what do you mean? And I said, well, my mom just came in here and already gave you an oil painting. She came in here before me and already gave you some kind of bias by injecting her perspective into the mix.

And I said, the whole thing is corrupted. It's corrupted. There's no way I can have an impartial session with you going forward. You are always.

The foundation is now built on zero integrity because you're always going to have a colored perspective based on what she told you. And I didn't think that was fair. I didn't think it was fair to shove me in a position where now I have to battle against a perspective that was already embedded in the therapist mind. And I just remember the therapist, my mom was sitting there when I said all this.

And the therapist looked at her and she shook her head and kind of like put her hands up and she was like, I kind of get it. She was like, he's smart. That's what she said to my mom. And I left office and I didn't, I didn't go through with the therapy.

But you see my point here, my point here is that it gets to A point where when you're trying to live the way that you want to live, especially as a youngster, and no one is supporting you, you develop really, really good instincts for manipulation. Because I felt like that was a complete manipulative move. Like, you're gonna throw me into a situation where there's already a bias that's been implanted that if I'm gonna talk to a therapist at all, it's gonna be on brand new terms. It's gonna be.

It's gonna be mano emano. It's going to be me on you. You know what I mean? And so I just took that as a very, very affronting, insulting thing.

And so those instincts were quickening and those instincts were sharpening as I kept going through this journey, you know what I mean? And then the other huge breach of trust, the other huge breach of trust, and I know a lot of you can probably relate to this on some level, is I remembered being picked up from school one day in high school by my mom, and she had a. Literally a. Like a costume, like a wardrobe sitting in like a plastic wrapping.

And I was like, what is this? And she was like, I got you a job. And I was like, what are you talking about? She's like, I got you a job at the grocery store.

You're gonna be a bagger. And I was like, what? I didn't agree to this. And she was like, yeah, this is.

You're gonna do this, you're gonna save up money, you're gonna buy a car, I'm gonna match half of the carb, etc. And she was like, yeah, working jobs that you don't like, builds character. You know what I mean? Like, I could.

I could do a two hours basis on the. On how that is. But my point is, I was constantly being thrown into that I didn't want to do. And let me tell you something.

The existential dread that I felt when I had to put on that outfit, this was when I had like a. This is when you could get work permits in America when you were like 15 and a half. I wasn't even old enough to drive, and I was forced to work this job. And the growth.

This grocery store, it was. Vons is the most hideous place on earth. It's worse than the dmv. It's soulless, soulless, lifeless people hobbling around that are using coupons.

And. And I'm just. I literally like. I was in Arkham Asylum.

I was in Arkham Asylum. I'm just like, can someone please just anesthetize me, because this is insane. I'm working, like, 40 hours a week. And I'm not even joking.

At the time, I want to say minimum wage was, like $7 and 50 cents. It was absurd. My paychecks were, like, 200 bucks for a full week of work. And I'm just in there, and I'm in there every day after school.

I had to go to this job, and I'm just like, there has to be more to life than this. There's no way. There is. No.

There's not a snowball chance in hell that this is the only path in life. There's just no way. And it was just bloody torture. I felt like I was on a torture rack.

And I knew I had to go. I knew I had to go. I knew I had to leave the nest. I had to get the out of this house, out of this space, and take full responsibility for my life as soon as possible.

And those of you who've been on SoundCloud and have heard my. My old origin story from about two years ago, you know that at 17, I bounced. I bounced. I let everything burn and die and rot.

And I went and embarked on my own life and started to express myself the way I wanted to express myself. And it was the harshest, most intense experience that I've ever gone through, but it was the most uplifting as well. It was like a benediction. You know what I mean?

Like, I could finally start taking the shots that I wanted to take and be responsible for that. And that's all I ever wanted. All I ever wanted was the authority to just run my own life and please, like, I will deal with the consequences for every decision that I make. That's not a problem.

But I just need the freedom, and I need the opportunity to do that. I need the freedom and opportunity to do that. And, you know, we didn't have a male figure in the house. Me and my younger brother.

I raised him. Me and him would get into fist fights all the time on the basketball court because I just had this chip on my shoulder. If he would defend me well or block me, I'd start talking. Me and him got into a ton.

Me and my brother almost put each other in the hospital several, several times before the age 18. Like, I remember throwing him through a bush. I threw him through my neighbor's bush in a fight on the court. And literally three years later, you could still see the silhouette cut out from where I threw his body through the bush.

It never grew back. It was insane. And we Would just. We'd give each other bloody noses, just fuck each other up all the time.

And. And so it's like the whole household was fucking imploding. You know what I mean? It was imploding.

And then, you know, you introduce a stepfather into the equation, that's a whole nother case of insanity. I. I have zero respect, zero for another man who steps in and tries to take care of another woman's kids. I think it's absolutely the most cuck beta sexual strategy I've ever seen.

And I. I just have zero respect for it. And I was man of the house. I was man of the house taking care of my brother.

And all of a sudden, this new dude moves in with my mom. My stepdad just comes into the house out of the blue, and he's the new man of the house. And I was like, nah, nah, nah, nah, nah, this isn't how this works. And I was in high school.

I was in high school, and I was like, bro, how the. Like, how dumb can you possibly be to think that you can just introduce another man into a home with two almost grown boys and think that everything's going to be cohesive? It was insane. So, you know, it's like my territory at home was essentially being encroached, and so I just had zero freedom left.

I didn't even feel like my home was my home. I didn't feel like my room was my room. I had nothing. So I was like, I'm just.

I'm gonna dip. So I dipped at 17, you know what I mean? And then the. The real sparks in me just started to come out, and I had to decondition and deprogram myself for years.

It took such a long time to dissolve the interior voice of all these teachers and authority figures in my head. It took a long time. A lot of practice, a lot of reps, a lot of just doing whatever I thought was right. Learning the hard way, learning the real hard way.

By the way, like, I. I had made the same mistakes hundreds of times in a row. Hundreds of times in a row. I had to make the same mistakes before I learned.

And that's the way I wanted it. That's the way I wanted it. I wanted to just to have the freedom and the flexibility to be able to do things on my terms. And that's how it had to be.

And so once I left the nest from an early age, that's when everything started to make sense. Everything about life started to make perfect sense. There's a whole nother cosmos out here than the one that I was doing before. There's a whole nother world where you actually do have the freedom to do whatever the fuck you want every moment of the day and be responsible for yourself.

There's a way of doing that. But no one ever tells you this. No one ever tells you this. It's through immense pain and suffering and having a fucked up childhood that you finally come to the conclusion, wait a minute, this was all a hazy delusion.

You know what I mean? You can grab the steering wheel of life and you can take this in any direction that you choose to go. And it's just the most liberating feeling on earth. I would have rather slept under a rock than slept another night in a household where we had that kind of combativeness and that kind of clashing of forces every day.

It made zero sense to stay zero. You know what I mean? It's a sink or swim thing. It's a sink or swim thing.

And sometimes when you just throw yourself in the pool, you're going to start figuring out how to swim. And. And it really does. It really is kind of a simple philosophy.

It gets really simple after a while, you know, and then it's just living a fast life from that moment on. I lived a very, very fast life. And, and someone recently asked me and they said, what do you think the biggest contribution to your success has been in your life up to this point? And I said, I can endure pain.

I can endure more pain than anybody that I know. And I truly believe that's my edge. I can endure an immense amount of pain. And I know how to juggle it, and I know how to barrel through and I know how to get on the other side.

I also know how to harness and channel the negative emotions, emotions that I have. And that comes from years, years of just being brutalized and having nobody believe in you, nobody believing in you. Zero. No one even understands the path that you want to take.

You know what I mean? Like, no one gets it. Nobody does. And they don't have to.

They don't have to. Like, that's the. That's the one of the grandest liberations you can ever go through in your life. The true transformative experience is understanding that no one has to understand the path you're on whatsoever.

Nobody. They don't even have to grasp it on a. On a subliminal level. It doesn't matter.

Like, you are here to express your genetic destiny, your. Your whole mission as a man. It's why you're born with the hardware that you have is to see how far you can climb, what the else is there to do, what the else is there to do with your time. But see how far you can push your limits and see how far you can go beyond what you're supposed to be on paper, beyond what everybody says you were supposed to be, beyond what your genetic fault line is.

Like, why wouldn't you want to transcend beyond that? You know what I mean? Like, that's the best fuel on earth. That's an infinite green, clean supply of fuel that you have.

The rest of your life is just having doubt and disbelief around you everywhere. You know what I mean? Like, I don't do any. I don't do anything the technically correct way.

I never have. Even that fucking nasty, wicked, filthy jump shot that I had that was fucking lethal, by the way. I had the fucking record for three pointers in a game on my varsity high school team for like 10 years. I was just roasting.

Even the shot was fucking janky. It was janky as fuck. It was a very, very ugly looking jumper. It was like my arms had to outstretch way above my head.

My technique was not good at all. It was a very unorthodox style of basketball, but it worked for me. And this is what I'm telling you. There's really no proper way to do, to do anything.

And what I've realized about coaching, about trainers, about things in general is, you know, you get a guy with a lot of quirks, you know what I mean? Or like a movement pattern or some kind of technique, some kind of tactic that he uses in life that works really well for him. And then people will step in and be like, dude, that's not how you're supposed to swing the golf club. You know what I mean?

That's not how you're supposed to approach business. That's not how you're supposed to do this. And what they do is they try to correct, you know what I mean? They're trying to correct an over compensation that makes you stand out, it makes you phenomenal.

If you look at every phenomenal athlete, phenom, Usain Bolt, they all have very, very asymmetrical movement patterns. They're very asymmetrical because when you're asymmetric, I want you to understand this, it does give you a kind of propulsion that being symmetrical doesn't give you, you know what I mean? That's a fucking metaphor for life. That's why the ugly motherfucker, an ugly man has more upside with women than good looking men do.

Because he's got the asymmetry. And so he's going to develop a host of character patterns on top of that. That's going to obviously give him more of a shot at the highest echelon of women. That's a fact.

That's a fact because everybody regresses to the mean. So what I realized is when I would go see a coach or I'd be in an Olympic lifting gym and my feet are. My setup's not right, you know what I mean? I'm pulling a little too hard on the left.

Every motherfucker who's trying to correct me, that's trying to make me symmetrical, that's going to make you average. Symmetry equals average. Understand this, this is, this is like parochial wisdom. And it's also a liability thing.

There's coaches that they're training athletes, they want them to have perfect symmetrical form. Well, that's a liability protection. They want an athlete to have perfect symmetrical form because they don't want that getting hurt. Your chances of getting injured and hurt when you're symmetrical are a lot lower than they are if you're asymmetrical.

But the force production of being asymmetrical gives you a lot higher upside. Do you understand? So it's dangerous. Life is the same way when you live a symmetrical life.

Your chances of getting lucky, your chances of getting any kind of divine benevolence, any kind of divine benediction almost go to zero. But it's through asymmetry that beauty is expressed, that entropy is maximized. You know what I mean? So, like, I would never fix my setup in the gym.

And I was just crushing. I was crushing on the court, I was crushing in any activity that I picked up. I dominated and got good very quickly just doing it my way. You know what I mean?

I tried a golf coach one time to correct my swing. I wanted to snap the club in half off the front of my kneecap. I got so frustrated. He kept telling me, now that's not the right way yet.

I'm blasting. I'm blasting balls into the troposphere. Yeah, my accuracy was a little bit of, but was a little bit. But I could have fine tuned that.

I just couldn't do it. Everything I did was autodidactic. Let me jump in and I'll learn the hard way. I will figure it out because I'm relentless and I will put in the reps, I'll put.

I will live and breathe whatever it is that I choose to do until I get proficient at it. That's always been my style. That's why I've always said how you really can tell a lot about a man, about their character, by how they behave when they do recreational activity. The recreational activity is actually who you really are.

That's you unmasked. If you play pickup basketball and you're lazy and you don't want to defend and you don't want to help out on a pick and roll, and you're a lazy motherfucker and you treat it light hearted, hahaha, I don't care if I get rained on. That's who you really are. That's your character.

Because your character always comes out in practice and recreation and fun. Fun is the truest expression of a man's heart. Do you understand? Because the real thing, when it comes time to perform in a real match or a real competition, that's when the mask actually comes on.

You know what I mean? That's when everything is very curated, very manicured. There's, there's really none of the imperfections exist. So who you are in recreation is who you really are.

Understand this. That's why, you know, anytime I see a who plays any game or even something that's supposed to be light and fun and they take it seriously, I'm like, that's a hunter, that's a shark right there. That motherfucker's going places because he's not investing time into anything that's not serious. You know what I mean?

Like, anything you do as a man, you should take seriously. You have to take things very seriously before you can keep them light hearted. If that makes sense. So that when it does come time to come up on stage and do the grand performance, it just looks effortless.

It's. It's spreadsatura, you know what I mean? It's just complete sprezzatura. And so for me, like I told you after high school, when I started battling life and taking life by the horns on my own terms, and I started to understand that the 250k year salary would not augment my life any more than being on, I'm not Even kidding, a 4k a month salary.

Like what? What could you really fucking do on 200k a year that you can't do on like 5,5k a month? Food is covered, 100 shelters covered. Okay?

I can't fly private, I can't fly first class. Who gives a. Okay, my car is going to be a little bit shittier, but I still got all bases covered. So not only am I not Working a middle class job for a salary, there's no golden carrot.

I can hustle deals left and right, make a little bit of cheddar every month, but I'm a free man. I can rove around the world and do whatever the I want to do. I can walk into Misty Tavern if I want to. I can go into the wilderness if I want to.

I can go talk to anybody. I can walk into any storefront, I can make fast relations. I can go to any city on zero, basically zero income. Basically zero income.

And so I realized what a trap the middle was. And that's why I never wanted to go to college and why the would I invest another six years into becoming an employee. Makes zero sense. I'd rather be dirt poor because even when I would win huge bets as a youngster because I played high stakes poker for a long time and I'd play cash games, I'd win, I'd rattle off 300k when I was like 24, life didn't change at all.

Life didn't change. I could maybe get a few more fancy dinners and kind of have money on the sideline, but I never wanted that. I never wanted that. It's almost like in life, like you truly, your life really doesn't change until you do have millions of dollars.

It's just a fact. Like the golden carrot, the golden handcuffs, the salary, it's just your life. Not that much better than the guy who's making no money, but he doesn't have to wear a goofy suit, you know what I mean? Like he can walk anywhere the he wants to walk during the day.

Like that's instant status, that's quick status. If you see a at noon time in a coffee shop doing whatever the he wants to do, that motherfucker's higher status than you. You make more money than him, but he's having more fun. He's free.

So like my whole life's philosophy has been built around the idea that like, there's no point in reaching for the middle. I would rather have nothing. I'd rather be the biggest zero on earth because I'm still healthy. I still got a roof over my head.

I still got everything that 95% of men would want. And I'm having a great time and I'm free and I'll work on projects and I'll throw spaghetti at the wall and I'll take monster, monster risks with the cash that I do make. And I will be ferocious and fucking relentless with my risk taking until I hit the fucking massive payday and then I just fucking took leap. I took a quantum leap.

And now I had a great time. I have life experience because I'm traveling around, I'm having fun, I'm walking into storefronts, I'm getting myself into crazy situations throughout the day. Guess what? When I hit my huge lick, it might take years.

When I hit my huge lick, I got way more money than the middle class and I got all the life experience and stories to tell. All you need is one bit. It's all about that first big swing in life. All you need is one home run.

All you need is a grand slam one time and it's game over. You wipe all the pieces off the board. So my whole philosophy has just been about that I'm going to take indiscriminate risk and I'm going to try to build a system that can outrun my bad habits. That's been my whole mantra.

If you have bad habits that you don't want to get rid of, you better build a engine that they can outrun it, that can beat it. Like we talked about Michael Jordan, you know what I mean? Made so much money that he, he doesn't have a gambling problem, he's just seen as eccentric. So it's like if you're going to leave leaks and you're going to leave flaws and holes in your game because there's behaviors that you like to indulge in, whether it's too much alcohol or you smoke three packs a day, you have to be very arduous and militant about counteracting those effects, you know what I'm saying?

So it's like if you are a what they quote unquote call a functional alcoholic, you better have a really strict regimen around that of health. You better be lifting, you better be a fitness maniac, you better be eating right. Because then whatever you're indulging in becomes the reward. Do you understand the difference?

Rather than doing all the degenerate all day and then rewarding yourself with lazy and comfortable, you turn yourself into a machine. You get your work done, you bang it out and then you use that as your reward system. That's the only way you can do it is you have to build a system that's going to outrun the entropy from the bad habits that you have. It's the only way it can be done, you know what I mean?

And my fast paced, quick witted lifestyle that I've, that I illustrated on my last basis, you know, it's, it's like I had this Very Zen Buddhist detachment to everything, anything life would throw at me, any situation that I would get myself into. I had an absolute coolness and confidence about whatever it was that was going to be either taken away from me or how bountiful it was. I was just rolling with the punches. I remember when I was in my early 20s, I won a ton of money in a poker game and I bought myself an E class and the E class was pretty dope at the time and it was brand new and I was on the freeway in LA and a smashed me into the car in front of me and my car turned into an accordion.

It was literally a accordion. It was crunched. I wasn't hurt, but I got out of the car and I lit up a Sig. And the guy's coming over waving his hands and I'm just standing there looking at the situation and I'm like, like the first thing that dawned on me to give you an idea of the perspective in the mindset was okay, the chances that I'm actually gonna wait here and fill out paperwork and fill out reports and then call my insurance company, fill out another affidavit, then have to tow my car, send it to a repair shop, worry about how long that's going to take.

Dude, this is a microcosm of my whole life's philosophy. When that car got totaled, I walked off the freeway on ramp. And those who are, I have a few buddies on Twitter who are super close to me, they know this story. I walked off the on ramp and I let the card burn.

I have, to this day I have no idea what the happened to the car. I didn't talk to a tow truck, I didn't talk to anybody. I left the car on the freeway and dipped and dipped and I was like in the six week process that I would have to do, stressing, sitting on my thumbs waiting for this car to be fully replaced, repaired, whatever the insurance company was going to do. If I put my mind to it, I can go get an S class in the same amount of fucking time that I'm waiting for this E class to be repaired.

Because I know I'm going to be in a battle frenzy when I get home now. I have no car. I have no car, but I don't give a fuck because I'm detached. The car was never, the car was never an extension of me.

It was something that was fun and it was temporary. And I've always held everything in life in that temporary kind of light hearted fashion of like holding onto it tightly but also not too loose, so you don't crack the egg type of thing. Like, that's sort of just been my. My.

One of my. The biggest gifts that God has given me is I've been so able to just roll with the waves. I've been able to roll with the punches. I walked off the freeway.

Car disappeared. Like man on fire in Denzel Washington went home. Listen to me. I was so throttled and enraged that I now didn't have a car.

I didn't have time or the energy or the capacity to sit at home languishing. You know what I mean? Like, there was no way I'm gonna sit in front of a fucking console and numb myself out. There's no way I'm gonna be watching porn.

There's no way I'm gonna be wasting my time reading about fucking Schopenhauer. I don't have a car. So the ferocity, the archangel that was hovering over my shoulder to go get that car replaced, it was undeniable. I would wake up in a fever pitch every fucking morning, basically in a fucking deep sweat, like, okay, I now have to assemble some of the greatest deals I've ever assembled.

I got to go make sales. I have to stay ahead of the curve and beat what I see as a foot race between me and the imaginary insurance company who would have taken fucking forever to get me my car back. I don't want a rental. I do not want a fucking car rental.

I don't want this easy. I'm gonna go out and I'm gonna fucking resummon everything in my body and mind, and I am gonna go overkill the situation. I'm not just trying to replace the E class. I'm gonna go get an S class now, and that's what I'm gonna do.

And I'm gonna use the pain and the suffering and the torture of being stuck on foot and being stuck at home every day. And I'm gonna have to use this energy and this anger to go produce something. And that's what I did. I obsessively, 24 hours a day, around the clock, put my conscious mind to sleep.

And I let the genius and the brilliance of the unconscious mind that was so frustrated that now I had to walk to Whole Foods to get a steak, and I couldn't drive, come up with the ideas and the creativity to come up with a solution. And that's when I assembled the sales team, and that's when I started riding my horses really hard. That's when I started racing the horses. That I had built friends of mine, that I had helped them curate their mindset to become killer salesmen.

And I punctured it and I overkilled the situation and I ended up getting the S class in a faster amount of time than the E class. And so that was me being in control of my destiny and understanding. Because this all circles back into my original point about the system. The system is so gay and slow on purpose to demoralize people.

Why the does it take two months to file an insurance report and get an insurance refund? Like, why? Because they want everybody mired in the Gregorian calendar and getting used to the archaic dinosaur slowness of banks. It's 2023, fellas.

You're telling me banks don't have the technology to make instant wire transfers and ACHs, get the out of here. Banks take forever to clear money because they want you in that mindset of being a slow grinder. You're not an innovator. You're not an innovator.

You're an employee. And they're reinforcing that message. These bank times are going to be slow. You don't have a choice, sir.

You gotta wait. No, no, no. I ain't waiting for anybody. I'm gonna throw myself into the action right the now.

And if you won't transfer the money fast for me, I'm gonna get someone else to cover it. And if they won't cover it, I'm gonna find someone else to cover it. You know what I mean? And so you realize the banks are with you.

The whole system's with you. They're slowing down your money. They take forever to make deposits, doesn't clear on time. PayPal holds this.

This platform, holds this cash app, bands. You hear Kraken shuts down your crypto here. And you just realize the whole thing is designed for the farmer brain. It's designed to just make you a little corn fed little monkey who's just accepting the little peanuts that they throw you every day.

But you realize there's a better way of going about it. Because when the banks do that to you enough times and the insurance companies and you got all this red tape and you're on hold for three fucking hours just to get a very small issue resolved, it turns you into a monster. You're just like, why the fuck is the system like this? So it turns you into a kind of renegade where you're just like, you know what?

I need to find my own system. I need to go outside the bounds and confinements of what society is offering me and I need to create my own systems and it's going to be a hundred times more inconvenient. It's going to be 100 times more inconvenient finding a nice slick setup to move money around. But it's going to be worth it in the end because you got your balls intact.

You know what I mean? You got your balls intact. Like why the are you waiting for these institutions to dispel shit? It makes zero sense.

I, I refuse to go through the dehumanization process of dealing with insurance companies. I refuse to do it. I don't give a how much money they owe me. I am going to pretend that check does not exist and I'm going to go on a heroic mission and do some big boy plays and I'm going to go get three times what I'm owed.

That's the mentality that you have to have if you're truly trying to be a trailblazer and you want to get out of this it's system. You have to be willing to go through the inconvenience of building your own systems. It's, you know, it's like we can go on and on and on about how the whole thing is the FICO score, that's a antiquated mechanism as well. You know what I mean?

That is anti community, it's anti tribe. The FICO score because what it is it's making you depend upon an institution. You know what the real FICO score is? You guys actually want to know what the real true FICO score is?

It's having a network. It's having a group of homies that you can hit up at 1 o' clock in the morning and say, yo, transfer me a million bucks in usdc. That's your real FICO score. Your real FICO score is how many do you know on your squad that if you were in a horrific jam would come in and bail you out with a cash loan?

That's your FICO score right there. Why the do you need to get a loan from a bank when you could have spent the first decade of your life getting a network of bad who have cash to throw around? There's your fico, there's your bank loan and it's, it's, it's instant approval. They'll transfer you the money in five seconds.

So the whole credit thing's because your real credit score is with the homies that you got. You understand? You understand? So we can break down.

The system does things slowly on purpose because it Wants to push you back. It says, don't innovate. Don't be industrious. Let the guys who already have those reigns, let us keep reigning supreme.

We don't want you breaking out of the local minima. We don't want you breaking out of the local minute. Just focus on your little 800 fico. It's wonderful.

If you ever want to get a loan, don't worry, buddy, we got you. It'll take three months. Do you guys understand what an eternity three months is? Do you know what can be accomplished in three months of concerted effort?

I don't think anybody truly understands what an eternity that. An eternity that is. Or when just people put things on hold in general. It's fucking absurd.

Like, why are you waiting at the DMV for fucking four hours? Like. Like a rat. Like, why don't you pay someone 100 bucks to wait in line for you?

Go hang out at a coffee shop, and when your number gets ready to call, you just come in and switch places with them. Like, why aren't you getting creative? Why are you just doing what you're told and just waiting in lines and waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting for a paycheck and waiting for this to happen. Waiting for this to happen, and maybe one day this will happen.

Why aren't you getting in front of the problem? Yeah, you're gonna make a hundred mistakes. You're gonna make way more mistakes than the average person. But you got that subconscious mind that's got your back, and that shit's gonna bail you out of the situation. 9 out of 10. 10 times.

Nothing is not overcomeable. Nothing. I've been under attack my whole life. I've been under attack under pressure, under stress, under strain, under pain my entire life.

I've still figured out a way to figure it all out. You know what I mean? I got debts right now that I'm horseshoeing through, and it's going to be great. It's going to be one of the best comeback stories you've ever heard.

And you know what? I'm filming the comeback story. I am filming my comeback story right now. You guys are going to see a rise, a meteoric rise that you ain't ever seen before.

And I am documenting it live. I'm gonna release this to you to show what it's like to wake up and have 25 problems hunkering you down on your back and still finding a way to be happy, content, and have the confidence and wherewithal and resolve to get ahead of these Problems. I'm going to show you exactly what that looks like. I'm going to show you what it's like to lose a million dollars on a game.

I'm going to show you what it's like to lose 12 bets in a row. I'm going to show you what it's like to win 17 bets in a row. I'm going to show you the euphoria too. I'm going to show you the good, the bad, the ugly.

I'm going to show you how to manage it all. I'm going to show you how to become a creature. A creature that refuses to back down and refuses to surrender and doubles down on his nature and wins and successfully takes care of the. The people who've had their back.

That's the name of the game. Your supporters, the people who have stood by you. You got to pay these back in spades. And if you're living true to your nature, you're going to make mistakes.

You are going to do things that no one can comprehend why you're doing it, but eventually, you know they will understand. Do you get it? That's your job. Your job is to prove everybody wrong.

And you know that on a long enough time interval, you are going to do it no matter what. That's it. That's the juice you need. That's the gas in the tank.

It all stems from there. Got a spark up a sig. I don't think I've taken a breath in, what, 45 minutes? You guys don't know pressure.

I'm telling you right now, you guys actually do not have any idea, idea what pressure looks like, what real pressure looks like. You know what I mean? Like most of you young guys, you just got to take care of yourself. You don't even have kids.

You don't have a family. I do. I do. I got a son, I got a family I gotta juggle that I gotta take care of.

Like the. The more things you have to take care of, the more responsibilities you have in your life. The better the organism responds, the better the or. You are only going to rise to the level of the problems that you have.

And if you don't have big problems, you're never going to come up with big solutions. It's just that simple. Because civilization, technology has erased 95 of the problems that we would ordinarily face. So it's like you guys are shocked that degeneracy is rampant.

You guys are shocked that the crypto casinos are buzzing 24 hours a day. It's like life's problems are solved. No one really has anything do to. To lose by taking monster monumental risks anymore.

Because food is so easy to come by, shelter is easy to come by. You ain't going to be homeless. So it's like everyone's just fucking shooting their shot now. Because society has fixed those base problems.

They're fixed. They're easily fixable. Do you understand? We're not in a fucking survivalistic hellscape like we used to be.

Be. Those days are over. So now everybody has the opportunity to pursue what they're here to pursue unencumbered. Unencumbered, Unabashedly.

You can take infinite shots. And if you do it enough and you have the conviction, you are guaranteed to hit a big lick in this life. I don't. I don't give a how untalented you think you are.

Every man has the opportunity. Every man gets their lick. Everybody does. Every man goes through their phases where everything is just clicking and firing on all cylinders.

And where you end up losing. A lot of the magic as a man is when you're on a hot streak and you start trying to deconstruct and reverse engineer why you're on the hot streak. It's a huge mistake that guys make when things are clicking and things are working. That is the time where you throw analysis to the boneyard.

And you don't revive it, you don't resurrect it. Because the minute you start analyzing why you're on a thread of success is the very moment that falls through your hands like sand. It's over. It's done.

The magic is no longer captured. It is game over, my friend. You don't analyze a hot streak. Now, the sharp in this space will see how everything I'm saying constellates out of a lot of my central theories, right, about the subconscious brain.

Because that's letting the subconscious brain, the reptilian lizard brain, take over and do what it does best. All right, I'm gonna spark this up for real this. My younger brother's a G, by the way. Dude's a genetic freak.

My. My dad in the 80s tried out for the Oakland Raiders. My dad was a phenomenal genetic specimen. My younger brother's like six three, 210 pounds.

Very talented fighter. Had many, many underground fights when we were growing up. The guy's a monster. I'm gonna have to pull him up here on a spaces guy one of these days, and we're going to have to do a twin tandem, and he's going to have to share his experience growing up too.

Because me and him have completely polar opposite perspectives of growing up. Completely polar opposite. But the bottom line is nobody could quell the sparks in me. Nobody.

Like not no force. The only that could stand in my way has been brute to force. I have always been the problem in my life. There's never been any obstacle or barrier put in front of me that I couldn't figure out or solve.

You know what I mean? I have. The only person who's ever been able to take me down is myself. And the only way that I ever took myself down was by not channeling the fire in my soul in the proper direction, by denying who I am and not accepting myself for all my imperfections and trying to do intense therapy work and introspection, which never works.

It doesn't work because all you can do when you introspect, when you journal, when you meditate, all you can do is rewrite a fictional tale in your head. That's all you're doing. You're rewriting history in your head. But what nobody understands is the past is malleable.

The past is a viscous substance. Do you understand? The past is changeable. The past is the only thing that you can change in your life.

You are never actually living in the present. Everything you do right now, every decision that you make, is constantly redefining the past. You are always redefining it by what you're doing. You know what I'm saying?

You get a dad who's very abrasive, he's very imperial, he's very hard on you, he's borderline abusive. You grow up to be a smashing success, grow up to be a sensation. You grow up to be a starlet, right? Your perception of your father was that he was just a rock solid good guy who was a little bit hard on you, right?

That's your perception. But you take that exact same carbon copy subject, your father, and you put him in a diorama. You put him in an alternative scenario where you grow up to be a bonafide loser. You will say that your father was abusive and that he was the worst tyrannical, despotic figure that you had ever come across.

Do you see how those two outcomes completely change the way the past was viewed? The past is always being redefined by your own success, by your accomplishments. What you do changes the actual meaning of it. And it actually changes it at a temporal level.

Level. It changes it at the p perceptional level as well. So the past is not locked in you can rewrite it all the time by avenging it. Avenging the past.

That's what men are here to do, by the way. They avenge the past. They don't let the past wear them down. They don't harp on it.

They don't make it as their calling card. They don't use it as a label to be a victim. They get a vengeance on it. They get their comeuppance on it.

Do you understand the difference? One is fuel and one is hunkering you down and holding you down into a holding pattern that you can't break out of. So knowing that the path can always be redefined by what you're doing today, it is idiotic. Idiotic to worry, moan, or complain about what happened yesterday, because what you're doing right now is changing that at all times.

Smoke another sig real quick. Jesus Christ. What? What could you possibly want to come up here and say after this?

There's like a hundred plus requests. See what the audience has to say. Yo, Nick. What's up, buddy?

What do you got for us? Yeah, so I'm just lighting up a sig. Make sure. Make sure your question is interesting, please.

01:09:04CALLER 1

Yeah, yeah. So you know, we all know that you. You dabbled in gambling, right? And so you definitely got some gut wrenching losses.

01:09:17HOST

Horrifying. Have you ever would have brought most men to their knees? Brother, I've taken the blade. I've taken the blade to the liver more times than I can possibly count.

My exoskeleton. If you could seriously unsheathe the skin on the base layer of my exoskeleton, I guarantee you, if you did an autopsy, my exoskeleton has scars on it that looked like Zorro slashed it with a long sword. It's scarred, big dog. But yeah, go on.

01:09:47CALLER 1

Yeah, so. So that's. That's precisely the. The question is, how do you deal?

Like, I mean, have you ever dealt with low confidence after the fact? And how do you bounce back?

01:09:58HOST

Nah, dude. How long? It's the opposite, brother. Listen, I have had my guts, my entrails actually torn out in front of me.

Like, there were times in my twenties, in my life where actually I would put everything at risk because, like, I had rent due or I had to pay bills, or I had like, a very urgent matter that I had to take care of. And I would take everything in my pocket, fly to Vegas and bet on a match. And literally, I'm watching the match and I know that my entire livelihood is dependent on the outcome of this and when I would lose, dude, I would be absolutely invigorated because I realized very quickly when you take matches, massive shots, and you lose, your life really doesn't change that much. It really doesn't like you.

People always think this is the last time. This is like, this is like the male myth in 2023. Everyone thinks this was my last hope, this was my last opportunity, it's all over. But then you wake up the next day and you draw another breath and you're recharged and you're like, wait a minute, that was a foggy up perspective.

That's not true. There's opportunity every day. There's so much opportunity, there's so much beauty in life to behold of every day. It's like, why would I, why would I care about what happened yesterday?

The opportunities ahead are always better than the opportunities that left you. And I know I'm gonna hit my big lick. You know, the gambler's paradox comes down to this. When you're, when you have it and you're winning big, it's never as good as it seems.

You know what I mean? I've had it. I've. I've told you the story I had.

I had $17 million free and clear debt free in 2017. 17 mil liquid. I torched all of it. I torched all of it because I didn't have a system and I didn't understand at the time I was a little too emotionally immature to understand that as a man, if you want to live at the edge of life, you better have systems in place that are going to help you outrun it. I didn't have any systems in place.

I was just cocky and I had a huge chip on my shoulder. So I torched everything. But the, the point of the matter was, is that when you don't have the money and you lose, you think you're never going to be on top again. And those are both lies.

Those are both lies. It is as good as it seems when you have the money, when you have the big scores and you are going to be on top again when you lose. You know what I'm saying?

01:12:09CALLER 1

So it's like, but have you experienced that before? Like the, you know, you know, like the idea of I might not bounce back. Has that ever happened?

01:12:21HOST

No, no, because I, because I've called upon my past experience. I've never ever gotten myself in a quagmire that I haven't been able to get out of. It's never happened. Because I'm a problem solver by nature.

So the more problems I put on my plate, the more creative I become. And then I create my own upward spiral off of my own fumes I'm huffing. See, my style is I huff my own fumes. I get high off my own.

Off my own supply. I get high off my own visions and my own dreams because I'm a man of action. So when I have a creative idea, I implement at the snap of a finger. I don't fuck around.

I don't sit on ideas. You know what I'm saying? Like, that's why I told these young guys, I was like, dude, if you're living in an apartment, you really should have barren walls. You know what I mean?

Like, you should actually create a home environment where you're bored to tears. Because when you're bored and you're staring at the walls all day and you don't have huge fucking computer networks and video game consoles and all this fucking technology, it pisses you the fuck off that you're sitting at home not doing anything. It makes you so irate. Like.

Like, dude, here's. Here's. Here's the thing, right? Like, here's what.

Here's. What would make me go into a battle frenzy and operate at a frenetic pace where I could literally do anything. I could literally do the impossible over and over, over again, is the simple idea of not being able to go get a burger. Like, if you are a man and there's something that you want to do right now that you literally can't do because of a financial reason or because of other reasons that should make you so angry that you are not free enough to drive 45 minutes to the best burger in your city and grab that gourmet burger.

Like, that's how petty the greats really are. And people. The average person is so accepting of the word no, and they're so accepting of. Well, I kind of want to gratify this whim right now, but it's really not that important.

No, no, no, it's very important. Your life depends upon being able to advocate for yourself for the smallest tiniest of things. And I would be in those situations where I would wake up some mornings in my 20s and I couldn't go buy a cup of coffee. And it would be something like, it would be something.

Some existential torture of not being able to get myself a cup of coffee that would set me off onto a Judeo Christian crusade where I now have to hack and slash my way to the fucking top and rise rank and get above the hierarchy just so I don't ever have to feel the pain of that again. Because I was fraught. I was distraught by the idea of just not being able to do what I wanted to do. It's that simple.

Like it's not about the coffee. It's about being a man. Being a full sized red blooded male with raging hormones and not being able to do what you want to do. That should make you furious.

You should be livid. If you're at home right now and you literally are landlocked and you can't do what you want to do, can't go what you want to go, can't say what you want to say, can't talk to who you want to talk to. That should fucking make you so irate that you have no choice but to walk out of your front door and go start doing things. And that's what would happen to me.

It would be the tiniest little thing that I couldn't do. Or like I couldn't buy a pair of Nikes or I couldn't buy a new pair of training shoes. It would just piss me off and I would have nothing else to do with my time but get vengeance over it. Do you understand?

01:15:58CALLER 1

100. So for a young guy, do you have any general advice on, you know, how to, you know, go out there and start making money?

01:16:08HOST

Money? Money making is a very intimate process, my brother. Like, I don't think anybody on earth can actually point a man in the correct direction to money. I think it's, it's a, it's as intimate as your sex life.

It's a very, the way a man makes money, I think says everything about him. Like it's, it's the totality of your personality. It's all of your faculties channeled together. It's, it's the fabric and essence of your being.

Like whatever. You choose to spend your time earning a dollar. That is such a fucking hyper personalized aspect of a man's life. Like if someone came to me and said, how do I make money?

I can't even answer that question. That's like asking me what kind of bitch you should be attracted to. Like, I don't know, I don't know what you like, you know what I mean? Like your predilections are going to be very different from mine.

So like, it's just not even a question or a territory that I even try to try to breach because I think the way a man chooses to make money, especially in the year 2023, you know, the money climate is the closest cousin to war. It's the closest cousin to warfare, is getting your lion's share in life, getting your lot, putting your stamp on the world, making craters, leaving your footprint on this earth. You do that through business. Now you don't do that through war.

And so those are very close cousins. And the reason why I say that is because the amount of pressure and stress and strain that I've been under financially my whole life, I'm telling you, I have a lot of the character patterns and resemblances to a. With PTSD from Vietnam. I don't give a what anybody says.

If you go into the bowels of business at the level that I'm talking about and you're straddling and you're redlining that line, I'm telling you, it is identical to the experiences that people have in very, very gruesome situations. It can be that real. It can manifest as being that real because, you know, you're risking your livelihood every day to be somebody. To be somebody.

And I think that's the hugest problem with the, with the Gen Z and the today is no one wants to put their identity on the line to get, get what they want. And I, like, there's no other way to do it. There's no other way to do it. Like you, you can still preserve your integrity and your character while you're doing that, but there's, you have to put your identity at risk.

There's, there's no, there's no other way, bro, I got to get another sig. Go ahead.

01:18:36CALLER 1

You previously said, and I'm prayer, paraphrasing, like, fake it till he makes it. Am I right?

01:18:45HOST

Correct.

01:18:47CALLER 1

Okay, but how do you reconcile that with like, some people, they may just, just be like losers, you know? You know, like, if you're trying to like, strike up a business deal, say, you know, with, you know, you know, with a businessman, right? But, but you're not at that tier. You know, shouldn't you like, you know, kind of like, fake the identity of being someone who is actually worth something, you know?

01:19:18HOST

No, because you're always gonna listen, you're always gonna revert back to your self image. Like, you, you, you cannot outperform your self image in life. If you have a self image and a self identity problem and you've, you've typecasted yourself as a loser, it doesn't matter how far you tread above the water or how much success you come into, you will 100% revert back to your own, to your to your self image. You're always going to do that.

Like, you cannot outperform that. And the only way you improve your self image is through self talk. Do you understand? Like, you have to, you have to stomp out all the interior voices in your head from a critical parent or just whatever voices are in your head.

And you have to now become master and commander of yourself and you have to talk over those voices. That's really the only way to bolster and make a very robust self image is through self talk.

01:20:18CALLER 1

Gotcha. So then that's not even faking it. That's just you reconstructing.

01:20:23HOST

That's you rewind, rewiring who you are. Now obviously, dude, I do think blood is king. I think genetics play a massive part in all of this. And I do, I do believe in fate.

I think fate 100 is going to steer men in pretty much the direction they're supposed to go in. However, when it comes to a situation where, like you said, losers, bro, most people, no matter what they do, are going to end up losers. And I think that's a liberating concept because, dude, if everybody was a CEO, hard charging, type A personality killer, you wouldn't have a functional society. They're, they're, they're a very, very instrumental, symbiotic component of the, of the universe and the harmony of the biosphere that we live in.

We need those people. And, and those people, I don't even like calling them losers because a lot of people that I think are low aspirational, are, can be very utilitarian. Like you need hunters, need farmers. You know what I mean?

Farmers need hunters. Like we all need each other. So I don't, I don't really operate under the assumption that like, I don't, I don't, I don't really like the idea of, oh, I don't hang out with losers. It's like, dude, there's, there's literally a utility and a purpose for everybody.

I can find a way to incorporate anybody, no matter what station of life they're in. I know how to incorporate them into my life to make things better. You know, I'll give you an example. Let me give you an example.

Okay? This will illustrate it perfectly for you. Okay? So people think people are under the assumption that you get status from knowing high tier successful people, right?

Like, that's just kind of like a common thing. Like everyone would think, okay, if you know the owner of this restaurant, that must mean that you're high status when it comes to a lot of Mechanisms like that, it's actually the reverse. Okay, let me give you an example. If I pull up to a restaurant and I'm on a date with a girl and all the valet guys are coming up to me, shaking my hand, dapping me up, giving me hugs, being enthusiastic, ear to ear, grin, happy to see me.

Then I walk into the restaurant, the host, they come around, shaking my hand, great to see you. Boom, I'm being walked over to my table, busboys are coming out of every cupboard, shaking my hand, delighted to see me, okay? That experience, that journey from the time I walked from my car to my table, all the unseen, skilled, low level workers who you would think are invisible and meaningless and losers, they were just an instrumental component of the story of making me seem like an extremely high status man, right? If you take that carbon copy scenario that I just outlined for you and you pit it up against the opposite scenario where a guy goes to a restaurant, valet, doesn't know who the he is, no one gives a that he's in there.

Busboys don't care, chef don't care, waiter don't care, host don't care, he gets escorted to his table, but the owner comes out and the owner is very acquainted with him and shakes his hand. That guy who just got in, who just got dapped up by the owner, is lower status than the motherfucker who just got greeted by all the low, unskilled workers. And I'll tell you why. The low, unskilled, invisible worker, they get shit on all day, nobody gives a fuck about them.

But the man who goes in and takes care of those quote unquote low losers, and he treats them like a human being, and he treats them like royalty and he treats them as mercenaries. He tips them well, he goes out of his way to shake their hand and give them appreciation for taking care of his car, for parking it out front. That is a hundred times higher status than the guy who just knows the owner and treats the lower workers like that guy is a hundred times higher status. Not only is he higher status, he has an army.

He has an army. He can go to the valet guy mid dinner, Mid dinner, if he so chooses and tell that, hey bro, go to that liquor store down the street and go get me a pack of turquoise spirits that will jump on that horse like a galloping gazelle and go retrieve you a pack of cigs and bring it to you table side. The owner ain't gonna do that. You have a whole army now.

Now you got a battalion. And that's why I said, and I told these young said, when you're on the come up, you're making a big mistake kissing up and kissing ass to the big dogs. And, and the biggest mistake you're making is on the low guys. The low guys you need.

When you're an up and comer, you need the little guys on your team. That's your army, that's your base. You need to treat those guys like kings and make them feel special because those guys would literally do anything for you. I've had valet numbers in my phone for years.

These guys are mercenaries. They will do any. They'll go, literally travel three hours out of the way to go get you raw milk if they have to. They don't give a fuck.

Like that's a whole fucking life hack that motherfuckers don't take advantage of. Everyone wants to suck dick and kiss ass for the big dogs. And I have proffered this, that if you're a young up and comer, you should. Those are the guys you should be going to war with.

Why are you kissing ass to a gatekeeping big dog who wants to keep you suppressed? That's the mother. You have to pick, choose worthy opponents in this life. Do you understand?

You got to be willing to go toe to toe with people who are stronger and better than you. Those are the people that you should be competing with. You don't kiss their ass. And the low people, bro, those are the backbones of society.

So like when you say losers, I'm giving you a refrain. Those aren't losers. They're very important pieces of the story. God knows I have put those to work left and right and giving them tons of blessings and accolades and put them in higher positions.

I've given them side work, I've given them side jobs. Like you would think of valet guy as a loser, right? And he's 35 years old. But there's a, there's a, there's a play for him, you know what I mean?

And real winners and real killers, they know how to make those, how to elevate those lower status people. That's my point.

01:26:25CALLER 1

Gotcha. So how do you identify whether you're the, the, the hunter or gathered as to not waste time in your position in the world? Right.

01:26:34HOST

If, if you have, if you have to ask, you're a farmer.

01:26:37CALLER 1

Yeah, but I was asking for the whole space.

01:26:41HOST

Yeah, I mean, if you, if you ever find yourself. It's the same thing. If you ever find yourself worrying about testosterone. You got low T.

You know what I Mean like if you, if you wonder if your testosterone is high, it's not. If you won, if you're out here wondering if your estrogen is high, it is, it is. Like you, we, Everybody knows who they are, brother. I don't, I don't buy it for one second that no one knows what they're supposed to be here to do.

People just want a stall tactic and they want to ask you questions they know the answer to. Because what they're really hoping for is when they come to me for advice, they want me to give them a terribly wrong answer so they can waste more time. Do you understand?

01:27:23CALLER 1

Yeah.

01:27:24HOST

They want me to throw them off course and they're praying I'm going to give them an opposite of answer of what they know to be true. Because they want to stall. They don't want life to start now.

01:27:35CALLER 1

Yeah. So for the young guys, like if you are a hunter, right, and do you just, you know, blaze in, you know, your own path, like, or do you take inspiration from some, you know, some guys, like, I mean, sure, you're an inspiration, right? But say like if you're a 20 year old guy, right?

01:27:57HOST

Brother, let me interrupt you, bro. Like, I, I don't, I don't, I'm not a role model. I don't view myself as a role model in any way, shape or form. I'm just sharing my own strength, wisdom and hope from the things that I, I've experienced.

Under no circumstances do I think that anybody should be living like me. You know, when I did that video the other day of talking about how the fat guy, the fat guy who leans into being the jolly fat guy, he has higher upside than the who wants to deny who he is and go on that homogenized prescription of everyone being a fitness freak, right? Okay, that guy who leans into being the jolly fat guy, that motherfucker is more like me, me. Then the who shaves their head like a mohawk, starts smoking cigs and starts firing bets.

Like the who's leaning into their own edge. That guy's exactly like me. And that's what I want for everybody that listens to me. I just want everybody to be who the they're supposed to be.

I don't want anybody to be like me. That's never been my stick. My stick is lean into your edges and understand that the animal organism is brilliant. And if it's giving you maladaptive behaviors, it's doing it for a reason.

And you need to lean in and you need to maximize those attributes in order to Push yourself further because that's your propulsion mechanism. That's what I stand for. That's what I believe and I believe in everybody should be finding their edge and leaning into it as hard as they possibly can. Because what's the alternative?

The edge is going to go back the other way and it's going to knife you. It's going to serrate your own heart if you don't use it. Do you understand?

01:29:26CALLER 1

Yeah. And I think you said in the past is to really find that is to sit in silence. And that goes back to what you were just saying earlier.

01:29:33HOST

Well, you find you find your edge through the things that you have to do. And this is where life actually becomes so simple. But nobody will tell you this because it's not sexy what I'm about to say. It's not sexy.

It's very hard to package what I'm about to tell you in any kind of marketing angle. The reality of life is this. Someone will come to me and they'll say, hey, brute, I want to be a multimillionaire. How do I go about this?

My first thought when someone asks me that type of question is, you want to be a millionaire? You don't need to be a millionaire because if you needed to be a millionaire, you would already know and you would already be doing everything you can to get there. So life is simple in the sense that as a man, there are certain things that you have to do for whatever reason. This is why.

Look, women are the rational, logical sex. I don't give a what anybody says. Women are the rational, logical sex because women are predictable. If you are a man who understands women, you actually everything they do makes perfect sense.

It makes perfect, crystal clear sense to me why women do what they do. But the undertakings, the things that men are willing to put themselves through, to approach their dreams is extremely irrational and makes zero sense. Some guys absolutely have to blow torch through the world to get rich. You don't understand.

It's not a want to them. They have to. They can't cope. They can't sleep, they can't eat, they can't rest, they can't fuck.

They can't enjoy anything until they hit that goal. They have to do it. They need to do it. Those guys aren't on Twitter asking people questions on how to become a millionaire.

Do you understand? Because they have to do it already. So you will already know from an early age the things you have to do. I have to take risk.

I have to. I don't have a choice. It's the way I'm wired. I'm a natural risk taker.

I don't give a fuck what anybody says. I ain't ever living in a world where I don't take risk. I have to honor who I am at my fucking core. It's who I am, brother.

I have to put up shots. I have to take risk. It's what feeds the beast, it's what feeds the machine. So it's so simple.

If you want to do something, I've. I just don't see people wanting anything that actually achieve it, brother. I've never seen. When someone tells me they want to do something, I just roll my ass.

I'm like, good luck, man. You're on a real tough road right now because you just want it. Want is so weak. It's so fleeting.

There's certain things that you have to do and you will know it's a very personal. That's why I said making money is very personal. You will know what that is, and you probably know it right now as we're speaking.

01:32:19CALLER 1

Yep.

01:32:20HOST

You know what I mean? Like, you just have to. You have to get one over on that. Maybe your heart was broken by a woman and now you have to turn yourself into a monster to get over on that.

Okay. So lean into that. Like, that's actually. It's funny.

You actually get a much more functional society and you get a cohesive societal structure when everybody's actually leaning into their true nature and their true edge. Like, that's actually the. The road to harmony. That's how you fix societal issues.

It starts right there. It starts right there. But it's terrifying because most people's grip on sanity and safety is too tight. And that's the problem.

Safety and sanity has never produced a goddamn thing for civilization. Never. It's never done it. It's actually broken it at the seams and it's destroyed everything in its wake.

The blowback of men gripping too tightly on safety and sanity has literally been a curmudgeon. It has absolutely left an avalanche of destruction in society.

01:33:25CALLER 1

Oh, we can see the results right now.

01:33:28HOST

What I'm saying, bro.

01:33:31CALLER 1

And you had a fantastic tweet, man. The flip of the coin. One, you know, if you're struggling between two decisions, flick, flip the coin. In that millisecond of it being in the air, you're gonna know exactly what you.

You know what to pick.

01:33:45HOST

I mean, that was. That was a hyperbolic comment. Because if you're really paying attention, what it means is you don't even Ever have to flip the coin you already know? You know what I mean?

The coin is just sort of the illusion. It's sort of the illusion to illuminate the ridiculousness of your own, of your own self deception. But if you're really paying attention, you would know that every man already has kind of a stalwart kind of zeal towards whatever it is they're supposed to pursue in this life. And if you ignore that look, it all paths are going to be painful and treacherous.

So it's like, why not subject yourself to pain for a possible. By the way, I've never seen someone climb to the top of the summit of where they want to be and not get 100x return on what they thought was up there. Like the top of the mountain once you actually get there is actually far greater than you even can even realize or even dream of. Like it's, it's.

Whatever's up there for you is way, way, way more incomprehensible than you can possibly fathom. That's why it's worth taking on this type of work. You know what I'm saying? Because, dude, I'm telling you, the peak of the summit, it's gorgeous up there.

And then you got to find a new summit. The work is never done, my brother. The work is never done. I mean,

01:35:04CALLER 1

is that work is, is that work worth torching, say a relationship like with your father? If it's, if it's, if it's inhibiting

01:35:14HOST

your growth, yeah, it's the most ethical thing you could do. Think about it from this perspective. If you're, if you're supposed to be the man you're supposed to be and somebody in your life, I don't give a. If they're blood or not, is holding you back.

You are destroying generations of people by not leaning into that. Because when you yourself do become a father, you have the responsibility of being individuated. You have the responsibility of being the complete man so that you can birth and bequeath those lessons to your kids, who will then impart them to their kids. Do you understand?

So you're destroying a chain link. You're literally actually committing genocide against your own people. When you do not take on this work, you're committing genocide against your own people. Your unborn children are being punished.

This is. That's how serious this is. Yes, of course. Generational curses.

Can 100 be broken. I'm doing it right now. I'm being a.

01:36:14CALLER 1

Sorry to interrupt, but you could change then, for hypothetically, from being a Loser into, you know, for. Yeah. At least you're found. So you said it's in the blood.

Partially, right?

01:36:23HOST

It is the only way. Yes. You can wear a mask. You can wear a Persona.

That's what you can do. If you're a loser and you want to larp as a big dog, you can get away with that for a very long time. The problem is that mask will be unsheathed. I've never seen someone successfully pull off a Persona for a long time, a long stretch, and not get caught.

It's never happened in world history. I also don't believe. I don't believe lies. I believe every lie ever told gets.

Gets uncovered at some point. I believe that's true. I don't. I don't.

That's why I don't believe in lying to women. I don't believe in lying in general because I've never seen a lie not be revealed on a long enough time scale. They all come out. So you can wear a mask if you want to, but then here's the interesting thing, okay.

If you wear the mask and you wear the Persona long enough, you do kind of become that thing over time. And that's not really a fake it till you make it thing because there's a ton of action and thrust behind that. I mean, look at Tate. I've mentioned this over and over again.

Tate actually became that Persona. He became that guy. He manifested it. You know what I mean?

Like, that's the Nietzsche and that's the Nietzschean thing. The whole Nietzschean thing of will to power, it's actually taking a lie and making it true. You know what I mean? And that's what masters do.

That's what the. The people who have the most talent in the world, they take a lie and they make it true before your very eyes. That's magic. That says magical.

That's an as alchemical of a process as you're ever going to find on planet Earth is taking a lie and making it real. You know what I'm saying? And that's what marketers are trying to do now. And that's why the marketing industry is because everyone's embellishing, everyone's bullshitting.

And very few people have the stamina and the high energy and high intelligence to make the dream they're selling actually real. Very few people have that capability. Very few.

01:38:09CALLER 1

Goggins would probably be another example, right?

01:38:12HOST

I don't know too much about Goggins. All I know is he runs an obscene amount of mileage and screams at you to not be a. That's all I know about Goggins. That stuff doesn't appeal to me at all.

I mean, there's no. Nobody on earth that's able to be as hard on me as I am on myself. So the motivational porn, like, I can't even look at that stuff. Do you want to illuminate it for me?

So what's his. What's his spiel? Work hard. Don't be a.

Don't be a. Exactly. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.

01:38:47CALLER 1

I mean, he has done some insane, like, things that, you know, like, I mean, yeah, I guess his credits is the fact that he's done insane that the average man can't do.

01:38:59HOST

Yeah, I mean, I respect it. He's a guy who's also tried to push human limits, obviously, and kind of test like, the end ranges and then living on the edge. I mean, I definitely can jive with

01:39:09CALLER 1

that for sure, but I guess the only point of conjecture is that he's advertising that to, like, everybody. Like, anybody could do that.

01:39:21HOST

Exactly, my brother. Exactly. And that's what I'm here tack. That's what I'm here tackling today.

You know, like. Like if you. If you paid attention. I inserted some very sneaky jabs at stoicism throughout this because, look, stoicism has tricked a lot of men into thinking that accepting a life that you despise.

Accepting keyword, accepting a life that you despise has masculine virtue behind it. Because you're sucking it up. You're grin and bearing it. You're stomaching it.

You're not telling anybody that you hate your life. You're putting on a face and pretending you're okay with it. That's what stoicism eventually leads people to do, is it leads you to pretend that you are okay with circumstances that in your spirit, you're not really okay with, and that is not masculine at all. Coming home to a wife that you despise, coming home from a job that you hate, There is no masculine virtue in that whatsoever.

And sucking it up and pretending that you're happy in a situation that you're not is the most appalling. I literally. Words cannot articulate how disgraceful that type of lifestyle is. It's the most cowardly living life on your knees thing you could possibly do.

It takes a hundred times more heart and balls to walk away from that and go build the life that you want for yourself so that you're no longer a charlatan pretender, sucking everything up, pretending like everything's okay. I'm just gonna let everything roll off my shoulders. It's. It's absurd.

I tweeted the other day, there's a Russian word called terpila. It means a tolerator. It's a derogatory word in Russian. It means someone who's a pushover, someone who just accepts, someone who just takes, someone who just receives, someone who just absorbs.

And that's ultimately what the modern perturbation of stoicism leads men to do. It leads you to be a bulletproof vest rather than a hand cannon. You're a bulletproof vest. You're absorbing bullets and pretending that it's okay.

And then you just become a tolerator, and everyone's walking all over you your entire life. And you. And you think it's masculine because you're. You're suffering in silence and nobody knows.

But. But really, you're the butt of everybody's joke. You become. You become the butt of.

Of the American joke when you live that way.

01:41:50CALLER 1

That's being propagated as masculinity. That's insane. That.

01:41:53HOST

Well, of course it's propagated as masculinity because masculinity, in its fundamental essence is sucking things up and being okay with pain and not showing it. Right? But the problem is people have deceived themselves into thinking that means that it's cool to accept a life. Life that you hate.

And that was never. That was never the point. That was never the point. You suck it up to the life that you want.

That courage, that's valor, that's honor, that's living a gallant life. You know what I mean? That's the most honorable, noble thing a could do. That's what I'm.

That's what I'm telling you. So there's a hole. And a lot of men in this spaces, I know they're cringing right now because they see it in themselves. They know that they're living a life they hate, and they're trying to pretend that it's masculine, to just shrug it off like it ain't.

Like it ain't no thing. And I'm here to tell you it is a fucking thing, and it's a huge fucking problem.

01:42:45CALLER 1

Another life saved, bro.

01:42:48HOST

Another life saved. I'm gonna close it right there. This was phenomenal.